It’s the final Goodbye?

You know I don’t believe in goodbyes. Never did... I don’t believe that we can’t see each other in the near future or the hereafter. So yeah. I finally said catch you later to one of my best friends. It hurts so much right now and I don’t know this pain will ever go away. Can I just say 2020 has been a rollercoaster of emotions for me. I feel so lost and sad right now. You know what’s the sad part of this. I have no one to talk to except just writing in this sorry ass excuse for a journal. It’s okay... it’s okay... I’m going to be okay. It may take another 10 years but I think I’m done making new friends. I’m calling it quits. Because I think after finding the ultimate one everyone else will just seem second best

Sigh 😔