It’s time for us to move... forever

We are done when I was 5... now let’s move to when I was 6. My mom’s company decided to expand their reach to another state that is how do I describe it a bit of a primitive state. They don’t even have a McDonald’s yet during that time. So my mom have to uproot all of us to the new state which was 340km away (around 211 miles). My mom who was the youngest sibling among her 9 brothers and sisters has a certain advantage. All of her nephews and nieces will stay with her when they have finish high school. So me and my brother were babysit by almost all of my cousins (I was the youngest cousin at that time)

So my mom drove us there first while my cousins waited for the movers to come and pick up our furniture. Mind you this was driving during the time google maps was not invented yet. So my mom has stacks and stacks of maps. The countries road system during that time was not fully developed yet. Most of the roads were just 2 lane trunk roads and there were no freeways or highways. My mom navigated the roads like a pro while listening to the Beatles, Eagles and some other 70s band that I don’t remember on the cars cassette player.

We finally arrive and.... to be continued later

I’m sleeping happy...

Before I sleep... I just want to say cherish every minute you have with people that you love... 5 minutes can seem like a lifetime. Surround yourself with people that make you happy, smile and laugh. If you can’t get that at home... try finding it somewhere else. It might take you 5, 10 or maybe 20 years but eventually the right person will be there making you happy... goodnight world

Living with my dad

My mom had to send me and my brother to my dad after the passing of my grandma. Dad was a 6” 4 inch man, with Afro hair. He is white even though he was from Indian decent. By this time Dad has remarried to a nice lady. I’ll called AD. AD was strict but kind, she does show defection but not too much. We stayed with our dad for close to 6 months... since we didn’t go to pre school our friend is my one true love... videogames. I think that there were the iPads of the past. Dad bought it to keep us company and I was addicted. Played hours with my brother and we were never bored even if we were  playing that game for the umpteenth time.

I don’t remember much on my time with Dad. I did remember he bought us toys. Brought us out... cooked lots of curry (I think that’s where my love for Indian food came about). Oh yes... Dad lives with his parents... so this is my other set of grandparents... my grandma is a kind soul... always cooking her chapati and curry for us. Grandpa was always trying to make us laugh... he has a long beard like dried vermicelli noodles. We did felt loved in that house... but I miss mom 

Ok time to sleep... I’ll continue tomorrow another tale of how we left where I was born to a state where we call home... 

My longest friend

It was supposed to be yesterday but I fell asleep. So every Tuesday I’m going to highlight a friend in my life. Obviously there won’t be any name involve. They probably don’t know about this blog anyway. I have a lot of friends, some being best friends while others are just acquaintances. I do cherish my friends nonetheless. Today I’m going to write about my oldest friend.

My oldest friend is my childhood friend. I’ve known him since the age of 3. How did we meet? Funny story... her mom hit my moms car and they became best friends ever since (those were simpler times)... we were together until the age of 6... after that I had to move out of the state (more on that later). He did visit us from time to time but we drifted apart. It was not after we both were in university we reconnected again... now he has his own adorable kids... and lives nearby. We just rarely get to see each other

Why is that? He is married to his work. His works for the government and does very important life altering stuff. I can’t tell you what since he also never tells me anything. My kids called him “uncle teet” because he likes to make that sound when he touch his nose.

So here is to my oldest friend... there will be more stories in the future... I won’t tell when

My grandma passed away

This is the first time that I experienced sadness at such a young age. Grandma knew that she was going to die. She made grandpa his breakfast, played with us for a while and then went to her room. She put the mattress down and slept peacefully. Like that she was gone. During this time my mom was pursuing her career in medicine so she was in England continuing her studies. When she got the news, she rushed back as fast as she could but it was too late. They had to bury the body and couldn’t wait any longer. Mom came 8 hours too late... I didn’t remember she cried but the look of sadness every time she talks about grandma is there. I was too young to have a meaningful relationship with her but I’m glad my kids have a beautiful relationship with my mom.

Well... that’s all I remember about my time at my hometown. Due to the fact that grandma is no longer with us my mom had to do the unthinkable and send us to live with my dad... find out what happens next 😁

I’m an uncle again...

My brother has just welcome his second child which is a daughter to the world. So now they have a set of a boy and a girl. I’m happy for them and also interested to see how they handle the new baby. The boy was very difficult and they say because I had girls it was easier on me.... just wait and see... just you wait... muahahaha... wait what are we taking again... oh yeah... baby girl. She is super cute... the brother doesn’t want to look at her... he kept on crying when my brother goes to hold her. Hope he doesn’t take the baby personally...

Vice Presents Panic The Untold Story of the 2008 Financial Crisis

10 years ago the worlds economy almost collapsed



I do love to watch a lot of series but I’m secretly a documentary buff.

What is it about? 
Well in 2008 the US economy is going to suffer a massive shutdown. Due to a lot of unpaid mortgages and banks can cover their investments... the banks will start foreclosure... which will lead into a ripple effect of the stock market crashing... people won’t get paid... basically the economy is headed towards a Great Depression (the one in 1928)

Why should you watch this? 
It shows the intricacies of how, an investment banker, an economist an a financial analyst try to save the US economy from collapsing. The ramifications of the bailout and how it effects the future

Why shouldn’t you watch this? 
If you don’t want something too depressing... this documentary is not for you. Basically it shows how  volatile the worlds economy is

I wonder?
How easy it is to get 800 billion dollars. Does it come in a truck? Or is just a digital number. I’ve always been fascinated by finance.

A lazy sunday turned into a tiring one

The day started at at 1pm for me. Wife wanted to get swimming attire for me because mine was already unusable. Went to the mall it was jam packed with nutty goodness. Pro tip: Never go to the mall on a weekend unless you have to. Didn’t get my suit but manage to get a lot of other stuff 😅. Went home change into my shorts and went swimming with the wife... it was fun and tiring. I can say that the road to becoming healthy takes a lot of sacrifice

Kids do the strangest things

Warning: the story that you are about to hear may contain cruelty to humans and animals... but it such a funny story so I am going to tell it anyway

Well after all that sap... you’re probably wondering is my life a total mess... it is... but I do have some fun memories when I was young. After the divorce my mom took me to live with grandma. I don’t remember grandma that much. She died a year after that. I do remember she was a nice lady... feeds me all the time. My mom comes from a poor family. She was the youngest of 10 siblings (😳 I know right... it’s a lot) and they have to make ends meat everyday. She was lucky that all 9 of them pool their resources to let her go to school... which was a 3 kilometre hike from the house. My grandparents house is on top of a hill in a winding road. Only one car can pass at a time and there is no indoor plumbing... we have a well and a hole outside the house to do no 2.  

So during the time most of my uncles and aunts were all living in the same house. It was small so we had to cramp in a lot. Everyone has their own pillow..... ok ok hold up... where is the funny story... (I’m getting to that... be patience). We don’t have a kitchen... and a small fridge... so most of the cooking had to be done outside the house on an open fire... I’m like bear grylls here 🤣

Ok one day they were cooking and I was bored. So me and my brother decided to play let’s chase the chicks around. So both of us got down and run around the grass chasing the chicks... we were having so much fun.... cheep cheep cheep... innocent fun right... I said to my brother let’s corner them... we both corner them until the only way they could go is straight.... try to guess what it’s straight on.... I’ll wait 

Give up... it was a open fire from the cooking. So the chicks runs directly towards to open fire and I can hear chicks screaming in agony... my aunts and grandma screamed... and... my grandpa (more on him later) got out. He was a very fierce man... I’m scared of him... he shouted what happened... they told him... he went inside and got his shotgun (the one with the big hole in front... like Jumanji) fired a shot directly towards us.... I can only hear one word from my mom “RUN YOU FOOLS” (I added the you fools in there, sounded more like Gandalf... who is Gandalf... google it). We ran and ran and hide in the woods... my grandpa couldn’t chase us since we were very fast. We hid in the woods until it was around 8pm.... after that we heard my mom calling our names, we came out... she succeeded in calming my grandpa... this story is epic... they keep on bringing this up until now everytime I go back home... 🤣🤣🤣. I never regretted it... well poor chicks but still...

Next... no idea what’s next... 4 years old is almost done... I don’t remember what happen when I was 5. I’m sorry but I think I’ll tell the story about grandma passing...

I’m going to be alright

So... it has been a weird month for me... but life without its ups and downs is not life. I can say it’s a learning experience and I think I’ve become a stronger person because of it... the thing is... any new feelings is bound to be exciting... is how we pick ourselves up when we fall that what’s makes us into a better person... my best friend to me to write this down.... I don’t even know how to use a pen 🤣🤣. Ok that’s all for now... check back if I have anything else to report

The Divorce

Back to where I was still 4. My mom and Dad separate in 1988. Frankly I didn’t know that they were divorce until I was 11 😅. I always assume that because dad was working to hard I only get to see him on the weekends. The reason why they were divorce is simple... he cheated on my mom. While my mom was working doubles at the hospital he went on to get some side action going. He brought us along like it was no big deal... granted I was 3 and it probably didn’t sink in. Other that that their marriage was not approved my the family. He was from a different religion and converted to our religion just to marry my mom. When you convert due to the wrong purpose things probably won’t last

My mom hates telling me this story. I’ve only asked it once in her lifetime. She did say that when they separated he wanted to take me and my brother with him. My mom told me that she won’t fight it in court and my dad doesn’t need to pay alimony as long he doesn’t get his hands on us... which turns out to be a good thing (more on that later.... like way later). So from a family of 4, now we are a family of 3. My mom stayed single all these years. Right now it will be 31 years since the divorce. She didn’t remarry or had any contact after that. My mom is amazing...

As for me what did I learn from this. Is that your kids suffer the most through your infidelity. Your significant other as well. Growing up without a dad sucks... there were a lot of things I didn’t get to experience without a father figure. My brother eventually picked up the mantle but he was a bit older.
Kids... cherish your spouses ok. If you ever get married. If you’re still single: hopefully you will find someone who loves you as much as I do.

Man... 3 post and it’s all depressing 🤣🤣🤣. Ok the next post is going to be funny... promise

I’m sad for my daughter

My oldest daughter has been seeing a therapist due to emotional issues that is making her feel unhappy. While the sessions are all confidential, the therapist did shades that she was unhappy, bitter, resentful and jealous among other things. I wanted to blame myself but both me and my wife are the opposite of her. The therapist say she still needs a lot of work... I hope by the time she needs to face the real world, she will be ready... I think I am right... writing is therapeutic and it provides a certain catharsis for my soul. I am alone but at least my thoughts are out there for strangers to read.

30 days with a friend

I had the actual unabridged version I wrote which is so long but I’ve decided not to post it... due to my respect to myself and my friend. Well... this was certainly interesting... I think both of us were lonely and we wanted something more from each other but in the end I think we are going to remain friends. She is from Scotland and has a beautiful family. Emotionally I was there for her but she wanted more... and she did found more... I am happy for her...Here is to  a friendship that will hopefully last till we are old but who knows. I think... I’m going to be alright...

3 more days till our 1 month friendniversary... but it has reached its peak in the middle... plateaued and now its back down again. I wouldn’t trade those 27 days for anything in the world.

When I was a toddler...

That settles it... I am not sleepy... damn it... I just have the realisation that I am alone with my thoughts. Being alone sucks... but being not loved is even suckier... so please be loved even if you are alone... sniff sniff

Ok let’s continue... probably last of today... didn’t know I love talking about myself 🤣🤣

Again I don’t remember much when I was 3 or 4 

I can tell you what I do remember... I remember playing a lot with my brother. The thing is always like this... we play a lot... something happens and then I cried... mom got angry at bro... bro got angry at me... hit me and I cried... and then he cried... we both get a time out (I am not too sure about the time our part but that’s mostly how my life during I was 3)

My mom always bought 2 of everything... we have 2 of the same toys... and yet we always one each other’s toy (I think it’s the same now.... kids are dumb... including me 🤪). She likes to dress us in matching outfits... I think for her it saves time trying to style each of us... not that I cared any much... I was very white... like Caucasian... it’s probably due to my father being half Indian from Kashmir (the white part at the top most peak of the Indian map) so I got his looks... like his nose and teeth... also his fur... I was a furry baby... if you put me beside of a bear... I think you’ll bring the bear home instead of me. 

Where is daddy in all this picture? Who knew... I have very little memories of him... probably suppress in my subconscious somewhere.... need to be dug our inception style (Kids... inception is a movie starring Leonardo Dicaprio... not to be confused with Leornado Davinci... the ninja turtle). I do know he beats my brother a lot with his belt when my brother acted up... no one touched me when I was young... again I am super cute 

I vaguely remember my first overseas trip with my mom. We stayed for 4 months in New Zealand. She had a sabbatical to work at the hospital there... the only memory I can recall was the stinky tar pits of Rotorua... plus my mom always bring up that story... she said when I am small I love to fart in front of her.... I still do... 🤣🤣

Ok so that’s about it during my toddler years... all of these memories are available on photos which is tucked in my moms house out of state... but it’s been years since I’ve came back 

That’s about it for now.... next is going to be a touchy subject... I’m still 4 and then the divorce happen that changed all our lives... need to be emotionally prepared for that one 

In the beginning

While trying to get some sleep... let’s start with where it all started...CUE THE MUSIC

Long Time Ago.... in a galaxy far far away  (hold up a minute... reset...this is not Star Wars)

It began with 6 infinity stones (ok my life is not a Marvel movie either)

still interested? ready... set... go

What do I know about my birth? I know I was born August 24th 1984. I was I was born in Georgetown and I also know I was born in the morning. The only recollection I have of my birth was the story my mom told me. She said she just finish a shift at the hospital (she was a resident doctor during that time), after she came back home I feel that my current apartment (her uterus... it is a uterus right... too lazy to google.) was to cramp and I need to get out. I was 1 week earlier than expected... so my dad had to drive her to the hospital while my brother was at the back. This was before the age of car seats were a mandatory thing. So in my head my brother was bobbing up and down at the back seat like a pinball. Those we're weird times... I came out and I was cute... the end

Little tidbits of me when I was a baby
- I was a naughty bugger. I drove my parents insane. The story they always tell me is that I am fast...I'll take the baby bottle (during those times, a baby bottle was made of  glass rather than high end plastics)... chug my drink like I was at a fraternity party and throw the bottle away... She said that there we like a lot of broken bottles on the floor because of it...I'm sorry mum
- My brother hated having me because besides that I am cute... I took most of the spotlight...I'm sorry bro... there is a happy ending to that story eventually

And there you have it kids... that's the story of how I was born... took me close to 35 years to tell it. But as they say better late than never

Next we'll move on during my stint as a 3-4 year old.  

A long trip down memory lane

Its close to 7 am and I am quite sleepy... but suddenly I’ve been thinking (which is not always a good thing mind you 😅) . As we become more and more older we tend to forget stuff... most importantly memories of our past years. Sure there’s Facebook but that’s only for the last 10 years. So I am thinking I need to start cataloguing my memories. Granted I am not a computer and I don’t remember a lot... but at least I’ll try to recall back my earliest memories before they are lost for good. I think the earliest memories I can remember is when I was 3... Let’s start with that and work our way up... Why am I doing this... I dunno... my life is meaningless to everyone but it’s still my life... plus I’ve never tell my kids stories about myself.... I am not an interesting person anyway... So it’s settled...we’re going back in time... I’ll try to still make this blog have some variety... I NEED TO START GAMING... it’s so hard during fasting 🤣🤣

My body is weird

It’s been 6 weeks since I’ve started the eat clean program. At first I was livid, since I do love to eat. But after being fat and obese, I am happy to report that I am now just overweight 🤣🤣 (Baby steps I know). I just finally realised that what we eat just don’t disappear into the ether. Since according to the laws of physics that matter just doesn’t disappear but rather change into a different from. So by drinking 1 litre of water means I am actually transferring 1 kilograms of mass in my body (I am baffled 😁). Anyway, that means you are what you eat. I think I should start exercising more than usual since I am currently having a hard time going down below 80kgs

The Americans

I think I'm starting a new post about the series I watch. Nothing riveting or groundbreaking in literature. Just my thoughts on how a show that I've watched so far



Seasons: 6
Episode Count: 75
Season 1: Good
Season 2: Better
Season 3: Great
Season 4: The best by far (Peaked)
Season 5: Went downhill
Season 6: Stick the landing

Staring: Focusing on the main characters (Thus its called the Americans)
Matthew Rhys (Honestly, no idea who he is. He has an extensive career according to his IMDB page but this is the first time I'm seeing him. His face always looks troubled.
Keri Russle (First of all I got to say, she is smoking hot. I've known her for her Felicity days as well as Mission Impossible 3)

What is it about?
A typical suburban family with two kids. They seem normal to everybody else but they are actually Russians spies sent to the US by the Soviets to steal state secrets. (It's actually based on true events). They need to juggle their normal american lives, their kids (who don't know they are spies) and living next door with an FBI agent.

What did I liked?
It turns out what they are doing for us as viewers seems cruel and heartless but for them its the patriotic thing to do. I love how they can change their persona and behavior depending on what they are wearing at the time. To be so angry and stoic in one part and lovable and funny in another without anyone suspecting. The episodes are build up as small arcs with smaller cases in them. You need to watch at least the first 4 episodes to appreciate the complexity of the plot. Once you have finish season 1... You're hooked.

Character development 
(Items are blacked out so It won't be spoiled for anyone)
Phillip Jennings : I love his character the most. He starts of believing on what he is doing is good but slowly throughout the seasons he realized that these people are human too and he is hurting them in some way. He has one of the best arcs from start till finish
Elizabeth Jennings: This girl is total hardcore for Mother Russia. She is ruthless is getting what she wants. I started of liking her and then hating her. By the end of the show she finally redeemed herself but with multiple bodies along the way.
Paige Jennings: She shows that you can't tell your kids bad news. They sure don't know how to react. Paige showed that a couple of seasons. It was realistic rather than he was on board with his parents being spies. In the end of season 6, she became a spy herself. I didn't like how her character ended since we won't know what will happen.
Henry Jennings: He was there just to move the plot. 
Stan Beeman: Another of my favorite character. He has to be the crappiest FBI agent alive. His wife dumps him, his partner was killed, boss was shot, secretary was a spy, his best friend turned out the be Russian and finally his wife may or may not be also working for the Russians. I hope things go well for Stan

Notable storylines:
They convince and FBI secretary to spy on the counterintelligence office 
They almost got caught multiple time but manage to flee at the last second 
Elizabeth made friends with a Korean girl and hated when she had to broke it off
Phillip married the FBI secretary and revealing who he really is 
The Soviets are trying to recruit their kids into the program
The finale where Stan finally discover the truth... was very touching 
Stan falls in ove with her informant who turns out to be a triple agent in the end

What I didn't liked 
There are plenty of sex scene but all the boobs are covered... booooo
The Russian plotline. By Russian I mean anything that is taking place in Russia, the embassy or involving russian people. The plotline is not that interesting 

Verdict:
This is a series that should be watched at least once. I don't think this can warrant a multiple viewing. Its extremely heavy and probably you require a palette cleanser after this 

I should start blogging more

I'm currently in a weird place in my life. I'm neither moving forward or backward in my career. Life has been mundane most of the time with the occasional weird events and I do think to myself a lot. I usually think that how come I am surrounded with people who cares for me and yet I sometimes feel alone. I wonder am I just destined to stay here without moving too much in life. I also wonder what does the future might bring for the family... I know that writing helps a lot... at least if no one else reads it.. I read it... Yeah, probably going to do that

John Wick Chapter 3 Parabellum

Is it just me or these movies are starting to be way over the top? Over the top awesome



What is it about?
John Wick is back after being excommunicated by his own assassin organisation

The good
The action is top notch. There are a lot of ways to kill people and each of them is super awesome
The story is interesting enough and very precise
Halle Barry is awesome in this movie

The Bad
There are more questions than answers. Who was John wick? Who is the high table?
The end boss is a bit too draggy

The Ugly
The fact he can still look good by just wearing a suit throughout the whole movie is baffling

After credits: No
Verdict: one of the best action movies this year. Worth a watch

Detective Pikachu

Imagine deadpool remade for kids and it’s so damn cute



What is it about?
About a story of love and friendship and one boy's quest to find his dad

The good
The Pokemón looks so lifelike. The way they design them really translate in the real world
The comedy is awesome... when It hits
Ryan Reynolds is a good choice of Pikachu
The Pokemón theme sung
The Bad
The story is ok... by halfway we already can figure out the plot
Not all Pokemón got to shine. A couple has the spotlight but the rest is just there to fill the screen
The story is not that funny... basically there are a couple funny scene but mostly it’s quite a serious story about family

The Ugly
The bad guy.... very cliche
Ditto sucks
No idea why the real Ryan Reynolds is not funny.
After credits: No
Verdict: it’s a fun movie but it’s not that funny.

Avengers Endgame

The final conclusion to an epic 10 year journey



What is about?
The events after the snap and how everyone is dealing with loss. The Avengers are going to find a way to save everyone

The good
The movie pacing was good
Every character has their moment to shine. The 6 Avengers got enough screen time
Hawkeye story came to a good conclusion
There is a right balance of sadness and comedy in it
The final epic battle that lasted a good 45 mins
Thor
Closure after the end

The Bad
The plot needs a bit more explaining. Time travel is confusing now matter how you put it
Nebula

The Ugly
They didn’t show how Hulk and Banner got together
How did Steve can stay in the past when there is another Steve on ice?
What happen to Gamora?
Is Loki really dead?

After Credits: First time in a Marvel Movie. No

Verdict: A stunning conclusion to an epic 21 arc movie. Worth the wait

Events that happen in April

This post was a bit late that usual since there are a lot of things happen. Starting with the early April my wife was admitted for food poisoning. The mcd they ate didn’t agree with them. The stray cat that came to my house had her kittens. 3 Male and 1 Female. 2 of them are born with deformities on their legs. Me and my wife went a 21 day clean eating diet plan. I lost 6kgs but gain another 2kg when we went to Taiwan. More on that later... My daughter sold her painting for 4 digits. I did a wind tunnel for my daughters science project. Too bad she got a bad judge to judge her project. She was livid but we sorted it out in the end. I saw a carrot shaped penis. That was funny... on the friend department I’ve made a couple. I met a guy (A) from Canada. He works as an oil pipe technician. Very nice guy and genuinely interested in my religion... we are being the best for friends right now... my mom went to Russia... I haven’t been playing games as much as I want to... probably due to watching a lot more Americans...Went to a birthday party and people there call me hilarious. Did some document for my friend. That was really and issue since he is marrying a non Malaysia. In the end I didn’t get the problem solved. But hopefully they could figure something out. Watched Avengers Endgame which was worth the wait... and the highlight of the month... Going to Taiwan to visit my daughters best friend. The trip was awesome. Taiwan looks like Japan but still has some Chinese roots in it. We went to see the mountains, walked around the city. The girls shop till they drop. I didn’t get anything for me. Overall it was a good trip and I wouldn’t mind going there again. I’ll end today by saying that April 29th is my 13 year wedding anniversary... I love my wife so much... this was also the day I’ve made a friend for life