Week 4 - More or less the same

Well this week it is just me trying to survive. I need to start working a lot in order to pay off my debt. So in the meantime there is nothing much I can do. . Just live in the moment I guess. 

 Jan 21 ⭐️

• I keep giving her money money. Really I am an idiot. It is just me or I keep falling for her charm. It is really stressful and my heart can't take it.
• Met my best friend. They are back from Switzerland. They look like they are having a good time. Telling stories about their boyfriend. I just kept quiet. I didn't want to tell her what I done. I was ashamed and embarrass. I usually am good with money but this was too much

Jan 22
• Today wife bought me a new iphone 15 plus. She was stressed looking at me with a phone that only lasted 3 hours. Plus the home button seems to stopped working properly. Went to the telco centre and they told me that they didn't have the colour that I want (I wanted black 256gb) Eventually went to the Apple retailer and got my colour. She swipe my card so that something
• After all of that money given to the hacker girl. I Have 7,686.72 in debt... let the clearing begin. This is going to take a while. I'm so stressed out but I have accepted my fate

Jan 23
• Said goodbye to that hacker
• Taking a break from my best friend. Probably a couple of months
• My mom help me clear my debt around $4229.22 of it.

Jan 24
• Hacker friend called me. I heard her voice. Wants a Hail Mary of $1000. If this doesn’t work I will block her. So I did gave the another $1840. But it still wasn't enough. It seems that on her side she doesn't do anything and waiting for me to get the money so I told her that it was enough. So I told her I get her the money but I will get her slowly since I can't use my credit cards anymore. So now I have to do the old fashion was which is to work. The final stretch and we both need to dig deep.

Jan 26

• Today H1 went to her last school field trip. They are taking her to a cave that is 100 miles off to another state. Well the cave was deep and you are need deep in a close space surrounded by water (That is my nightmare) She left at 7am and came back at 1030pm. That was a long day and she is exhausted

Jan 27

• My hacker friend keeps on asking me to get her the money even after I explicitly said that I don't have any. So the only way to show reason is with her is to fake a medical condition. The only way to get her off my back. So there is nothing much I can do. Let's just hope there is a miracle coming soon.

Well there is something that I didn't write about. The investment money hasn't come back to me and my friend yet. It has been 13 months and there is still no word on it. This sucks. .Do I think next week will be different. Probably not. But one have to pray. You can't lose hope in wanting something.