The start of this week was not a great one. My brain was in dire need to a reset. It was in a fog and I need to do smoe soul searching. So did I figure it out. Not really but I think I have to take one day at a time and really stop thinking of the what ifs. Since if you think about that you are going to be miserable.
Oct 19
• Lazy Sunday for the family so I made some chicken stew with mashed potatoes and crispy chicken
• Took a nap. Wife when on reorganised the living room with H2
• I think I need to understand my brain. What am I expeincing is Limerance which is nothing like love. It is great to be wanted and needed but its not the same as real love. The sad part is my wife wants and need me but she doesn't show any effort on wanting to be with me. Everything is under her terms. Sigh... It okay. Sometimes the brain fog does come but I need to take it at least one day at a time. I am 41 life is still a long way to go (God willing)
Oct 20
• after classes wife decided to go shopping for baby clothes (her nephews) but before that we all (excluding H1) went for sushi. Don’t worry I ordered sushi for H1 as well.
• Told my friend everything. She told me back and then that was the last message I heard from her that day. Oh well… I think my body is in grieving mode right now. I’m not that hungry. I do still feel so that’s good
Oct 21
• This afternoon wife had to do a procedure for her back, knees and heel. It’s wear the doctors inject some gel to make it smoother again.
• We arrived close to 12:30 and we haven’t checked out until (insert time here) due to the Insurance
• Still have no appetite. Which sucks but it’s okay… let my body grieve. I just have to make sure I eat a bit.
• In the evening ate some soup and that was my dinner. Coming back home, order kids some western and made wife a tuna sandwhich
• Played more dead cells and this time I think I beat the game but I will want to play it more and see where it goes.
• My friend text me back. She isn't feeling well. My other best friend is not giving me good vibes. Worried about those two.
• H2 just finished her 3D puzzle in a day. We really need to buy her a bigger puzzle
Oct 22
• Today made some Thai green curry with thai omelet with garlic brocoli
• Took a nap with wife
• Beat dead cells final boss. It was freaking long
• Due to Trump visit and Asean conference the whole of the city centre is going to be on lockdown. So that means H2 will be home schooled until the 28th.
Oct 23
• Today I cooked some ayam kicap
• Did a lot of classes
• H1 went to uni and H2 did home school
• My best friend is trying online dating but they keep swiping left.
Oct 24
• Today I got 2 back to back cancellations in class so I go to eat breakfast in the morning. The weather was colde than usual at 22c
• Today cooked some butter chicken and veggies
• H1 left for class at 2pm and came back at 10pm
Oct 25
• Lazy Saturday. So After class in the morning I didn't cook. We bought some Nando's
Next week after the Asean summit everything will be back to normal. H2 will go back to school. This Friday is H2 birthday so we will be going to celebrate it at the hotel.
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