University Part 1 - The Beginning

So as you can see I started my life at the university. This was my first time leaving the place where I grew always 80% of my life and started living alone. Mom send me off and after I got the keys to my apartment quarters. I was technically alone. The apartment was made up of 4 individual smaller rooms. In each room there is a table to study, a cupboard to put all your clothes and a bed. That's a about it. Oh yeah there is also a ceiling fan and a window. I choose the window connected to the walkway because I can see people coming around and it didn't bother me that much. I don't remember my room mates that well but I do remember there this one guy who is not quite right in the head and likes to bully me. Things like turning of the lights and others things just annoy me. After a while I just had enough and told him off. He backed down after that. So that was that. Food is located at the food court which is a 10 minute walk away from the dorm. So nothing fancy about that. So that about it. Oh yeah.. we are not allowed to lose our key. There are a lot of theft happens in the university so students are advice to lock their doors when they go out. So your key must be on you at all time. Losing your key means you need to go and do the "walk of shame" to the warden asking for a spare. Eventually if you do that too may times, you are going to pay a fine and your name will be infamous around the dorm. 

Chapter 2 of my life adventure begins

I just realized that I have been 2 year neglecting on my memories and I am going to be 39 soon which makes memories are getting harder and harder to remember (no I am fine, I don't have any brain disease (nauzubilah) that I know off, at the time of this writing) so I need to jot things down for you all to read it eventually. Not sure if you guys want to read it but this give me peace and I love peace in my life. So the last we left off is when I got my final exam results and it was bad. Mom (your grandma) was sad because my brother did well and I didn't. Which sucks because I am smart but I am extremally lazy. So with my results that means I can't go to any public universities (because they are cheap) so private universities are my next choice. So I did apply to a lot of places but only one place came back with an opening. The offered me a spot in a Diploma in Information Technology, I like computers. So sure why not. Little that I know this is where I met the love of my life. Your mom... but more on that later

Final check of high school friends

So my this is my last post of my school friends. So what happen to them. Well I am still in touch with 50% of them. My classmates from my school they all grew up to be successful in their field. Most of them are IT engineers and a couple followed their dream and work in the movie industry (I kid you not). We have  a group text chain on the phone. We also get together once a year to just hang out and check up on each other. They say I haven't change. Which is good I guess. I think my high school experience was okay even with the bullies and such. My friends even thought I wasn't that close. Helps makes the days bearable but I am glad that it is almost over 

I can drive

So when I am 17 I finally got my drivers license. I train with an old manual car. What is manual you ask kids. Its basically the stick in the middle but you need to change it every time you go fast. So I got to drive my mom Honda Accord. Not the current car that I usually drive but an older one. The thing is the car that I train with is a small car. The Honda is 3 times the size. So I am still not sure of the spacing for the car. That means that I keep hitting the car into things. Let's see. I hit other cars, the gate, some pillars among other things. The best part is that mom was not at home. So I used the cash I have to fix it for repairs. Overall in time I got better at driving. Now have close to 200000km under my belt. I love driving... it gives me a time to think. 

My first girlfriend

Well your dad had his first love in high school. She was not in my class but I met her through a mutual friend. She was a nice person and we studied together. I mean we don’t go out on dates since we were young and there is practically nothing much to do in the city. It was good fun. I broke it off with her after I finish school. We really don’t have anything in common and I was waiting for the one I guess 

Being the only child - again

So my brother got accepted in a university. So that means it was just me and my mom. Being the only child means that we only see each other during dinner time. She was busy with work and I was busy with school. Being the only child does have its perks. I get to do whatever I want but the bad part is that I was alone most of the time. I did feel that being the only child I have to be appreciation of having a brother... 

High school year 5 final year

My last year in high school. The final year is the hardest since this is my final examinations before going to university. But I wasn't that serious is studying. I played a lot of video games and still are behind in some of my studies. I still have the bully problem but I just manage to let that slide. The subjects that I can pass I did well and the subjects that I have no grasp on. I failed miserably. But as they say. Life goes on I guess. I don't want to relive back but my high school years but as a lesson to you kids if you eventually read this or if your kids read this is that. Failing at high school (we will get that to that later) doesn't mean you are going to fail at everything else you do. This is just another stepping stone in the tapestry of life and there will be other challenges that you will probably fail or do great. So I just say. Enjoy the ride and make a lot of great friends.  

It is almost the end of the week

Have you ever feel that this week has gone by. So that what I felt. This week has gone by fast. I feel that accomplish much but there much to do. You know that there will never be enough time. Time is a constant thing that is always moving. I wish I had more time. Slow and steady I guess. Too lazy to blog today.

Neighborhood friends

So I live in a neighborhood where there are a lot of kids in my age. We are great friends when we were young but now it is just mostly seeing their post on facebook. Among the 4 of us I think I am the least successful. All of them like earn more and have better lives than me. But you know what I am not that sad. The memories I have with them from playing my ps2 at home. Going to each houses for barbeques and just hanging at their houses till late at night. I'm kinda sad that my girls don't have neighbors as friends but they have good friends. 

Almost miss the deadline

Well today has been too busy but I manage to remind myself to blog about something. So today I’m happy that I got my best friend back. It’s weird that I think we need each other to calm each other down... it’s just something we bring to the table and that is rare for a friend to do that. I am happy... tired because there is always a lot of stuff to do... but happy nonetheless 

My first crush

Well before you mom there was another girl that I had a crush on. This girl I met during my extra tuition classes for subjects you don't understand. But let's face it. Tuition classes don't actually work. It is just an excuse to see your friends. I don't want to tell her name but let just say she looks very cute. The thing is I know it is a crush and nothing more. You know the feeling where you heart skips a beats faster and faster when she is near you and you can't talk. I was young back then and I really was a shy kid. I really don't know how to talk to girls. A friend of mine knew about this and tease me constantly. He did pity me because I am like no functioning when the teacher ask me a question and everyone eyes are on me. Did I manage to get out of that phase. Not really. I did manage to talk to her on our last day before we won't see each other again. She gave me her number and we texted. That didn't last that long and we drift apart. And you know something. I met her again when I was around 19/20. Apparently she works at Starbucks (Now she is a regional manager for 4 Starbucks since she has been working there for 16 years) and we said hi. But now I am much better at talking to girls. So the thing that I wanted to say is that. If you think you have a crush on someone. Try saying hello. You never know a simple hello can change you life profoundly. 

Going forward I will try to write more memories as much as I can since there are a lot more topics to cover and I am getting older in each passing day. So if I have nothing to write. I'll just add more memories in my bucket.  

School is hard

The last two years of secondary school is a challenge for me. I am not the smartest person out there. I mean it probably due to I have no interest in some more of the technical subjects such has physics and chemistry. I do remember that my worse subject is calculus or additional mathematics. I really struggle with it because I takes me forever to understand simple concepts. I do love English and normal maths. I get along with all my teachers so that is not a problem. The problem is seeing the look on their faces everytime they need to give me a paper for my grade. I find it funny that I am such a bad student that I pick it up when I was in university. So kids remember, just because you fail now doesn't mean you are destined to fail in the near future. I mean I turn out alright I guess. I think... Come to think of it.. If I do school now in my current form would I make it? The answer is probably... because I think I've grown in this past years and I have been helping H1 a lot in her homework and let me tell you her homework is hard. 

Bullies Part 2

Well it’s been a while so let’s continue on the bully story. He tormented me everyday with the notion of me getting beat up. You know what’s worse than getting beat up is that knowing that is beating is around the corner. There are times that I feel that life is just over since I keep getting tortured mentally. There are happy days so that’s good. I am not going to dwell on that but all I can say that having a bully teach me that if I find people who like me. They will like me for me. But some of the times you know you can’t please anyone. What happen to the bully you ask? Well my brother told me that he came by the house when I wasn’t there anymore asking for money. Gladly say my brother put a restraining order on him. Good riddance 

The Bullies (Part 1)

Well I knew eventually I have to come to this part of my life. You may think I’m all friendly and happy but the fact is that school was though. After year 4 i was tormented by a bully. To make matters worse that the bully was in the same class as I am. First he would just treated to beat me up. For no reason. Well I do believe the reason he was so unhappy is because he is a drug addict and has an unhappy childhood. But as for me I almost got beaten up... eventually I did... but they were smart. They don’t hit my face because that would leave a mark. Instead they just hit my chest area. It would leave a bruise but it wasn’t that bad that I would come crying to mom. It was a different time back then. I mean you know how it was when your school... if you guys get bullied I’ll come over.. but I really didn’t want to trouble your grandma... okay... so that’s all for now... I’ll continue later 

I love to cycle to school

I remember my bicycle. It was a 5 speed with off road tires and a short frame due to my short size. My brother goes to school by motorcycle but I just love to ride on my own. I’ll usually take my own time cycling so I’ll leave home around 7am and cycle to the stand that sells mixed rice. I’ll get my mixed rice which I’ll eat later. While I cycle to see I have time to reflect on the day. The best part of having a bicycle is that I can go anywhere I choose. I’ve cycle hours to go to the beach. The city to get some games or just hanging out with my friends or by myself. I miss having a bicycle. Nowadays people all wear their expensive suit and bicycles to cycle around the highway. But there was a time where you just can’t ride a bicycle whenever you choose... good old days 

The Whole Family is Back

Well I decided to stay back home after 6 months. Now mom and my brother is back. So we are one big happy family. Except there is nothing much that happens. I mean we are busy with school and mom is busy with work. We only see each other during dinner an hour a day. I really don’t remember anything during my 16-17 year old age. I think it’s mostly we kept to ourself I guess... oh well. Please try to make memories with your love ones. 

Living in a boarding school

So in year 4 I decided to try staying in a boarding school. My school is basically a semi boarding school. So you have the option of staying in school if you want to. So the reason why I wanted to stay in school is because I just wanted a change of pace and I didn’t want to commute from home. I found out living in boarding school is not like in the movies. First of all that you need to wake like super early to start the day. And the food there is not as nice as at home. I think we ate fish 6 times a day (which is funny that now fish is expensive). Overall it’s mostly study study and more studying. It was fun because I get to hang with my friends. Overall the experience only last 6 months because mom wanted me back and I also wanted to go home. 

High School Year 4 Part 2

 So let me write about things that I remember during my year 4 in School 

• I love all my classes. But that doesn't mean I am good in all of them. My three worse subjects are physics, chemistry and additional mathematics. It's like normal maths but worse. I can never seem to get the hang of it 
• We get 24/7 hours access to the new computer lab due to our own stream. Usually when we are there we just play around with different programs. I remember that one of my friends will slowly adjust the volume slider on the speakers and he will give that person a file. When he play it the loud sound will cause the whole class to laugh. It was hillarious 
• Some of my teachers that thought me for last year have moved due to the new headmaster. Which sucks. The new headmaster was a bit of a stuck up 
• Our class is small so it is a tight knit group. We tend to travel in packs. So we usually go out for lunch during lunch is not in session. We always got in trouble but after a while they just let us do it. Again we are a weird class
• There are only 6 girls in class and 12 guys. Those 6 girls don't talk that much and low and behold I was assigned the head class again. Which I don't mind. It means I can go in and out whenever I want
• My class is in the 3rd floor and let me tell you. Going up and down everyday is no fun at all
• Oh yeah I am still 4 feet 6 inches so I was still small. However I am scrawny. I am just bones 
• Still not an athlete so I don't join that much in sports. Even if I try to. 
• The best part of this story is that I have friends in this class. Everyone was okay to me (expect the bully) and everyone tolerate me. 

High school year 4

So after my year 3 results I get to choose what type of stream (its basically what I want to be when I grow up) of class that I want to attend. The choices are art, science or mechanical stream. The thing is I have no interest in doing all of that. Low and behold our school was chosen to do the pilot program from another stream which is IT or information technology. It means its computers and stuff. I am like. I like playing games on the computer. It must be the same. So I joined the class. Little that I know that this class was also a place where the school bully also went to (more on him on another time). The class was small. Only 18 people. Some of my friends from previous classes moved around. I did see them from time to time. But I love my class. We are kind of like rock stars. I think the school wants to show that we can handle a new subject. So we were given the best equipment. The best teachers and basically having the best stuff. And yet we have one of the worse students. So more on that later... 

Year 3 Results

It's been a while since I've written about my memories. So I am going to tell they day that I got my results for my final year 3 exams. I was a smart kid but I didn't study that much during this time. I also played a lot of videogames during this time so I really didn't pay attention to the books. So during my final results out 8 subjects I got all a single letter grade. One might thing that amazing assuming it was 8A's but I got 8 B's. Since I got 8B's I was considered an average student. Not too smart to be acceptable to any boarding or science school and also not too dumb to be kick out of the school. So I stayed at the same school and just continue on. I saw the look on my mom face and she showed me the face of disappointment. I think she felt embarrass since all her friends kids all got an A (or more) in different all subject and she has to content with me. I am okay. But I think it wasn't the wake up call I need