Week 35: Its my brithday. I'm 42

This week is my brithday and it was a great year to reflect on my life. I am so thankful to have a wonderful family, wonderful friends and a great job. I also met a new friend so lets see how it goes. Had a fight with my best friend but I think now its already the writing on the wall 

Aug 23

• Morning classes and then mom came back home

• We went to eat at Cili Kampung. She ordered food so I just let her but only to find out that is was super spicy for her. For me it seems fine. We pack the food and went home

• Send mom to the hotel. Went back home and after praying after to go meet father in law to get H1 srunchie 

• Came home did more classes and walk outside for an hour. 

• Went to sleep at around 1130pm after playing some forza. 

Aug 24 🎂

• Happy birthday to me

• Sadly today I didn't do anything special since the aircond guy came with 2 new airconds and servicing 3 airconds. They came from 11am until 430pm

• Cooked some mee hoon and it didn't came through. I really need to cook it again one day. Also cook some pasta bake for sister in law 

• H2 came back in the evening 

• Got a lot of birthday wishes. From friends all over the world and local friends. Wife's family didn't remember until they got a reminder on the group chat. Nd gave me the last wish before I went to sleep. 

• Nfs didn't wish me at all. She was in depress mode about her love life. She is really not a great friend 

Aug 25

• This morning after class had a fight with Nfs. She just remembered my birthday. I said okay but I was hurt. To make matters more interesting. She and the guy that he is interested in is going to start dating. She thinks I am still in love with her. Honestly… far from it. What I found out yesterday is that a narcissist will always make it about them. She bought me an ice cream cake even after I said don’t buy me anything… the ice cream cake was good though. She probably won’t be coming back anytime soon and I am okay with it 

• Brought mama to Mak Kimbong. Since today it was a public holiday the crowd was crazy. But we manage to get our food for everyone to eat.

• Sister in law left and I made some pastabake for her to bring back 

• Did classes and then went to bed early since I need to get up early to send mom to the airport

• Met a new friend today from X. Single Chinese mom with a 13 year old son. Hitting it off 

Aug 26

• This morning no early classes since I need to send mom to the airport at 515. Came back just in time for my 630 class which I got 2 stars. Sigh 

• Today is a busy day for me since while just started her class so we need to go a lot of different places 

• I bought stuff to cook some osyter chicken but first I need to send H1 to the dentist to get her retainer back 

• While driving I though I realised that I won't have time to cook and send wife at the same time. So I decided to teach H1 and her boyfriend how to cook my meal

• It turned out pretty well (even if H2 did mess up the onion cutting)

• Send wife to her next class while I went to go get some ramen for lunch as well as a chicken burger for wife

• After class send wife to the hospital for physio and pick up cleaners

• Did more classes in the evening and send cleaner close to 1130pm. By that ime wife was sound asleep

Aug 27

• After sending wife to class I went to get my haircut. Finally I can breathe again 

• Bought some groceries and today I am cooking garlic butter shrimp pasta. It was delicious but wife say the prawn was a bit too fishy 

• Ddi some walking where I have the time

• Lunch with wife and then more classes

• In the evening pick up wife. H1 and her boyfriend are at home studying. He left later in the evening 

• Did classes and went to bed at 1030pm

Aug 28

• After class send wife to class. Went to get H2 some breakfast at family mart and I had some tosay for breakfast

• After picking up wife and send her back. Ordered food today since I have no time to cook

• I went to the airport to pick up my friend only to realised that she has went back. I felt like an idiot waiting but I wasn't angry. I had to try my luck. 

• Came back home and did more classes. The cleaner was here but today she is massaging wife. 

• I had some instant noodles for dinner and then at 830 I send the cleaner back home and straight go to airport again to pick up my mom.

• Mom flight was delayed so she arrive at the gate at 10pm. Said hello to my moms friends and then went home. 

• Took a shower and sleep

• Nd came back home. She was really tired and she leaving back to Johor in late at night. 

Aug 29

• A long 4 day weekend means that there will be a lot of classes. After class had to do some groceries because mom wants to cook some masak lemak

• Pick up cleaner at 12 and then after that wife was bored so we went to the mall to do some retail teraphy 

• In the evening we went home and di some classes and we got invited to another get together wife wife aunt family. It turns out it was a birthday celebration for August babies. Ate satay, rice, and noodles with secret recipe cake 

• Came home at 1030 and send cleaner home

• My steps are getting more and more. It is now at 11000 steps and I don't think I can go on 

Next week will be school week. Everyone will be back on their normal schedule and classes for me will have to change. Maybe get to see Nd. Who knows

Psych Season 4

They really don't make them like this anymore

This season cases: A western, Shawn got shot, an assassination. The season got it all. 

Intro music: There is an intro singing it in Hindi and another in an acapella version.

Relationhip: This season we are looking into Shawn love life. Between Abigail and Juliet eventually he will have to choose someone 

Cliffhanger: The Ying Yang killer is back. But this time we focus more on the Yin killer. Which we don't know who until next season probably 

Week 34: Kun Faya Kun and it is going to be okay

 What a birthday week. You know for the first time in a long time. I feel good about myself. Even will all the money borrowing. I think we are going to be fine. I am going to call it mercy from Allah. I believe everything is going to be fine with me. Other than that I got to celebrate my birthday 2 times this week. How cool is that 

Aug 16

• Did a lot of classes in the morning and I went to do groceries because today I am cooking lasanga for the family

• I do not like to cook lasanga because it takes forever to make. The whole process takes around 4 hours. It is so tedious 

• Did some steps as well 

• Wife student want to come and visit the house, but wife doesn't want any visitors 

• Everyone had 2nd of the lasanga. It was a hit with the marinara sauce 

• Nd visited got to visit a football stadium for free. She got to saw Newcastle playing. That seems fun. She miss eating Malaysian food. 

Aug 17

• Start the day after classes is by sending wife to physio at 11. Did some shopping and steps. Steps are getting harder 

• I wasn't listening to wife so she gave me the silent treatement until after lunch. That was bad on my part anyway 

• Had lunch at the university food court

• Came home did some classes and wash wife's car in the evening

• Pick up wife and did more classes 

• H2 is going on a camping trip with sister in law. She is coming on the 20th 

• Nd text me and say she wants to borrow another 400 to activate roaming. After that she called me for 8 minutes and we talked and laugh a lot. She seems happy eventhough she has a bad case diarrhea. She decided to stay longer there for a while before

Aug 18

• Today after classes and send the wife to work. H1 ask me to send her to the train station because she wants to go eat at the ayam gepuk viral place. 

• But not before she gave me her glasses which were damange and ask me to fix it. I straight away went to the shop to try and fix it. It is a good thing that did

• Came back home and get ready to pick up Arf because he wants to treat me to a birthday lunch

• We went to eat some wagyu and brisket sourdough pizza. Due to it being sourdough, it doesn't fill too filling. He also gave me a couple of nice t-shirts and a vanity plate 

• Send Arf home and pick up H1 at the train station. After picking up the cleaner went to wife's office to pick her up

• Did classes in the morning and send the cleaner back close to 1130pm. 

Aug 19

• After my usual morning classes I have to send my car to the service centre in order to change the timiling belt. The good news is that I can complain about the other problems in the car 

• Cook some chicken curry and steamed cabbage 

• After that wife wanted to go to visit her father so with that I can't do my classes for today 

• At dad in law house we ate some karipap and cempedak for tea and then dad ask to go to the mall because she wants to give H2 her old tablet but we need to get her a new tablet. Good thing that they have a spare wheelchair so I can push wife around the mall

• After buying the tablet we went for dinner at Ah Cheng laksa. The food was mid. Nothing too special. 

Aug 20 🎂 

• Did classes in the morning and after that had to send H1 retainer to the dentist because it’s broken 

• Cooked some chicken Alfredo for the girls and ate ayam gepuk for lunch

• Mom came from KL. But she 

• Did more classes and the problem started 

• H1 left her scrunchie at her grandparents house and she wants to get it right away. Wife was not having it. I had to calm wife down and had to calm H1 down. Both of them finally agreed to a truce 

• Today is Nfs birthday. I got her a box of 4 cookies and a note. She is having a fun time celebrating her birthday 

• Nad called me twice. And also ask to borrow 1k for her change of tickets… I gave her because I know one day she is good for it 

Aug 21

• Did morning classes and then send mom off. She ask me to order some airconds for her room and H1's 

• Send H1 and her boyfriend to the mall. The wanted to go to the pokemon card convention 

• Wife wanted Naknak for lunch 

• Went to pray and then came back for one class before picking up cleaners 

• Went to the mall. Wife and H2 went shopping for some stuff. I manage to did my steps 

• H1 and boyfriend went back home with us.

• Got a call for 15 mins with Nd. It was good. Nfs was in her depressed mood because the guy is not texting her back. 

Aug 22

• Finish class just in time to say goodbye to H2 before she left for camping. The house is not going to be the same without her 

• After class got to have some initimate time with wife. That was nice since it has been a while 

• Then we all got ready including H1, we are going to the mall to celebrate my birthday early. We went to a all you can eat sushi restaurant and it was really good. We could eat as much sushi as we want which was what I wanted 

• After that we went around the mall. When I went for prayers with H1 I got a call from Nd. Her phone was having a lot of problems so she ask to borrow another 3k to buy a phone. I believe in Allah will. I do believe as well. Help those who are in need. So I gave her the money and hoping she will pay me back. 

• Went to get some ice cream and I got double scoop. After that went home close to 5pm

• Took a short nap and then did some work. Wife suprised me with a portable shaver as a gift. Not what I wanted but its okay. I am happy to get anything.

• Finish work close to 9 and did some more walking. Its getting harder and harder to complete my steps.

• In other news. Nfs is just getting frustrated that the person she likes is not talking to her. 

Next week will be my birthday. This sunday I am going out with my mom. Other than that I don't have anything big planned. I got to go to the airport multiple times so that is something. 

Avatar Aang: The Last Airbender

We get to see the gang back 

What is about?
15 years has past after the great war and everyone is trying to rebuild the world until a new threat emerges 

The Good
The animation is so beautiful. Every frame can be a wallpaper. 
The action is top notch. Avatar fighting is really awesome thing to watch 
Everybody got their screen time to shine 

The Bad
I wish there was more Avatar during this age. But this is the age of peace so I don't think they would want to do a full series 

The Ugly
Nothing much

After Credits: No 

Verdict: A must watch if you are an Avatar fan 

The East Palace

A supernatural Korean drama

What is it about? There is an evil spirit killing all the royal bloodlines and its up to the spirit hunter and the princess who can see spirits as well to stop them 

Double crossing: This tv show has too many double or triple crosses to count. Almost everyone here is a bad guy expect the two main heroes

Ghost: The ghost looks scary at the beginning but it is actually just a lot of CG effects 

8 episodes: I think its too long to get to the story. I think they are setup for a second season. 

Week 33: I almost lost myself.

What a week this has been. I met the girl of my dreams only to be crush in sprits. We worked it out by the way but I think these things take time.  What I do know is that starting next week I am going to just let Allah decide. I don't want to oerthink and stress myself out that much. That is not a great thing to do 

Aug 9

• Today after class I took a short nap and then got ready to go a H2 teachers son's wedding 

• The wedding was a H2 school so it was nearby. This is a buffet style wedding so we go in and eat and leave

• H1 boyfriend came and after that we all went to KLCC because wife wants to go to the bookstore and H2 friends bailed on her. So she wants to go to the aquarium 

• We split up and after a lunch, wife and H2 went to the aquarium. H1 went out with her boyfriend and I went to get my steps 

• Nd text me wanting 1.5k since she already book the hotel in Scotland. She became very angry when I ask for the ticket infor. I try to calm her down but I don't know if that works. Radio silence since 7pm

• Send H1 boyfriend home and we arrive home close to 8pm. Made egg sandwich for wife. Took a shower and wen to be by 10pm

Aug 10

• Morning classes and then walking as usual. My steps have gone close to 10000 so it a long walk 

• Today for lunch I went to the mall and made an appointment to get my car serviced for tomorrow and bought some stuff to make ayam masak kicap 

• After cooking, took a short nap. Did some classes and in the end played 20 minutes of games

• Wife is supposed to go to the hospital this whole week for ther back but she decided to stay and rest and not move that much (hopefully) 

• Nd is avoiding me somehow. I ask if I can meet up at the airport to say goodbye and she said she is busy. I am not buying it so I am going there just to see her. I won't talk to her. I won't say anything.I will just stay afar and watch for a while until she boards. 

Aug 11 (unmemorable)

• I finally did it. I drove Nd over the edge and now she doesn't wan tto talk to me and hates me. She was so angry that she hit her car. I cried a lot yesterday. I didn't know what to do. The only thing I can do is talk to Allah about it. In a way Allah told me it is going to be okay so I think I after a day of greiving today. I am going to let her go. She deserve better. I won't stop praying for her to come back. 

• Classes, cook some fried rice and pasta 

• Send my car for its 100000km service. It turns out to be a bigger service that before. Tomorrow I need to change my tyres as well 

• Due to crying a lot I was so out of it. I felt chest pains, hurt my head, and just sleepy all together. So for the first time I slept at 9:30pm

• Wife is still out of it. Her back is just becoming worse. I really don't know what to do with her. Just try to make her as comfortable as possible. 

Aug 12 (unmemorable)

• This morning did classes and made some sloppy joes for lunch with fries. I think I overdid it with the fries. 

• Today I am planning to go to the airport to see Nd. I came there at 2pm. Ordered a drink and just waited there until 4. And there I saw Nd with another guy. My heart sank. She was very friendly with that person. I took some pictures and left the scene with a sad message. Came back home I got a call from Nd she was trying to explain the situation. She told me there is nothing to worry about and that person is just a friend. Nothing much about it. Honestly... I don't know what to believe anymore and I think being apart it is a good time for us to reflect on our lives

• I think I need to let her go.I do love her but I think I am becoming obssess with someone I can't have. This is not good for my mental health and I need to let her go as how I let go of Nfs. In order to do that I think I will just talk to Allah more about this and hope lets me free from this grip 

• Came home and talk to mom. Cried a bit with her about my money situation

• Wife needed to go to the clinic to check her hemorroids. It is getting worse. I don't know 

Aug 13

• Today is just another normal day of classes 

• After that I have to bring wife to the hospital for he physioteraphy 

• Went back home and pick up H2. We then went to themall to have some lunch. I had some ayam gepuk 

• Head to mom in law house because wife bought a lot of stuff for her. Also because of her bad hemorroids she is soaking herself with salt in MIL tub. 

• Came back and took a short nap before contiuning with classes 

• Finish the day by cleaning the house and going to bed

• Nd arrived safely at Edinburgh. She will be staying at a hostel without any internet. So I won't hear from her anytime soon. I will miss her

Aug 14

• Today is going to be a tiring day. Started with classes in the morning 

• After that I need to go to the hospital to get wife's MC only to discovered that the clinci was closed so I rushed to the pharmacy to get iwife medication. By the time I went back it is going to be 1230pm so I decided to have lunch at the university and go and pray myself 

• Had a call from Arf saying that he wants to treat me to a birthday lunch (or dinner) and see if we can schedule something for next week

• Came home did a class and then pick up cleaner

• Did more classes and after that brough some bread and snack for the girls 

• Wife was being extra annoying today by shouting everytime I was doing something else. It was so annoying that I told her off 

• Send the cleaner back home only to discover wife was crying due to my words. Took me 30 minutes to calm her down. Then went to bed with a small migrane 

Aug 15

• Did a lot of classes in the morning and send H2 to the mall because she has a date with her friend 

• I ate some hot bird for myself while wife when waking up just ordered some food for her

• Continuing doing classes and in the evening went out of some mamak food with H2

• Nothing much happened today. Got to spend a good 10 minutes talking to Nd which is nice. That is probably the longest time I got to spend with her. 

Next week wife will be back at work. I will try to get more classes in. I think I want to try to finish Replaced next week. Arf is asking me to go on a birthday lunch date of my choosing and that is already pressure in itself.

Week 32: A good week with a littl e bit of hiccups

This week is done and dusted. I am feeling a bit sad but hopeful. I Think a lot of istigfar has taken a toll on me that I will just led Allah help me and I will do my best to push my luck forward. Ameen 

Aug 2

• After class we got ready to go out to have some lunch

• H1 is not here since she went to watch Spider-Man with her friends 

• We went to eat at our burger joint and wife ordered fried chicken. The fried chicken tasted horrible. Probaby one of the worse fried chicken I ate 

• Wife lost a handmade charm and we can't find where is it 

• Went to do grocery shopping and hang out at mom in law house for a while

• Came back home around 6pm. I did some more steps. Doing steps is getting harder since I need to do more steps 

• Wife started taking a weight loss drink but after one drink she felt horrible and wanetd to sell off the drink. It also doesn't help that she shot her back and now everything hurts. 

• Went to bed close to 11pm.

Aug 3 

• In the morning as usual did some classes. 

• Wife decided to take leave today as her back is killing her 

• Made some masak lemak for the family by going grocery shopping

• Nd text me and said that she decided to get married because she really needs themoney and pay me off. I cried. I know giving the money is the only to keep her around. So I decided to give it to her anyway. I took out 20k for her. I am leaving it to Allah to help me pay it back off 

• In the evening I did my steps. It is getting harder and harder since its already close to 9000 steps 

• Took a nap before making more lessons and going to be close to 11.

Aug 4 🎂

• Today is my mom birthday. She is 72. She has a conference right now so everyone celebrated her birthday at the conference 

• It was a good day for me. Classes. Wife decided to work from home so I get to exercise a bit while waiting for my groceries to come 

• Made some beef strips gyodon bowls with tofu and egg. The kids love it but I didn't eat it. I instead ate the ayam gepuk near my house 

• Pick up cleaners and continue to do some more classes. My step count has reach 9000 so its getting longer and longer. 

• Nd needed to go to Edinburgh Scotland to handle some inheritance issue. She use my credit card to buy the tickets which is 5k. I manage to secure a 4.8% monthly interested. She will pay it in 6 months. 

Aug 5
• It was an easy day today. Did classes. Did my steps. The water filter person came

• Send wife to work and had lunch at the university 

• Went with H2 to get my eyes checked. My eyes were okay. My shortsightedness is becoming more clearer but I don't need glasses anytime soon 

• Pick up wife from her office and then we all had movie time with the family. We watch Avatar Aang: The Last Airbender (5/5)

• Did some classes in the evening and then went to bed at 11. 

Aug 6

• Today after classes and steps I send wife to the hospital 

• The doctor told that wife needs to be warded to get her physio in. But wife doesn't want to so we schedule on a Monday 

• Ate some nasi lemak and soup at q bistro 

• Went to the mall and bought H2 a puzzle since we are not going on holiday 

• Came back home we gave the puzzle to H2. H1   has her best friend over. I did some classes and at night they ordered pizza

• Wife got pyjamas but she can't fit it so I am wearning it now. It is very comfortable. 

Aug 7

• Usual routine of classes and exercise 

• Today I didn't cook so I bought food from the nearby shop. There were fresh crabs so I got that for wife. Also got some cendol for dessert

• Went to friday prayers. Took a nap back 

• Pick up cleaner and continue classes

• In the evening our famous influencer did a contest where people who buy his products get to go to Italy. I try my luck maybe I got it but I didn't. I did however got the product. Probably going to give some to my friends

• Forza, send cleaner back ome and slept close to 1215am

• Nd was very busy today. I didn't get the chance to talk to her that much. After that she told me she had an emergency and then radio silent. I can't help it but thinking this is the end. I think we have an expiry date and I will have to let it go. I pray to Allah that I get to marry her. But it is getting harder and harder by the day. Please Allah... give me strength

Aug 8

• Today is going to be a long day of classes. After that I did an hour of walking. 

• Ordered some mee kolo and fried rice for lunch. Wife and H2 wanted mcdonalds instead. H1 just stayed in the room until th eend 

• Had class in the evening. Thaught a 16 year old and got a 1 STAR review. Got a long email about that lesson but its a coaching rather than a reprimand. So that is okay. Remember to take a nap next time after a meal

• Took a short nap after class and then we had to get ready for the wedding 

• We had to dress in black for the wedding and the wedding is located beside my mom in law house

• We went to the wedding is was grand. It was a rich person wedding. In the entrance everyone got pokemon cards and the girls were so excited. I gave my cards away to them 

• Inside we have cards with our names and it was a sitting wedding which means we are not allowed to leave until the proceedings are done. It was quite a while before we got to eat. The food was amazing. They started us of with Soto Ayam which H1 didn't finish and gave it to me. After that it was rice with 6 types of lauk. Ayam masak merah, rendang daging, sayur lemak, udang (that is an expensive wedding when there is seafood), fish. It ended with a dessert that was fried banana porriage and palm sugar sago. We stayed longer because we were having fun talking to the guest. H2 was enjoying seeing her friend (which has changed a lot). We ended the wedding with fireworks

• Came home and took another shower and went to bed

• Nd was busy taking care of her aunt who is not feeling well. So this week didn't talk to her that much 

Next week I will want to go to the airport to see Nd. I will ask her if I can send her to the airport and then if she says no I will come and see her off. Wife is going to rest for 3 days due to her back. Other than that I have nothing much plan