Week 33: I almost lost myself.

What a week this has been. I met the girl of my dreams only to be crush in sprits. We worked it out by the way but I think these things take time.  What I do know is that starting next week I am going to just let Allah decide. I don't want to oerthink and stress myself out that much. That is not a great thing to do 

Aug 9

• Today after class I took a short nap and then got ready to go a H2 teachers son's wedding 

• The wedding was a H2 school so it was nearby. This is a buffet style wedding so we go in and eat and leave

• H1 boyfriend came and after that we all went to KLCC because wife wants to go to the bookstore and H2 friends bailed on her. So she wants to go to the aquarium 

• We split up and after a lunch, wife and H2 went to the aquarium. H1 went out with her boyfriend and I went to get my steps 

• Nd text me wanting 1.5k since she already book the hotel in Scotland. She became very angry when I ask for the ticket infor. I try to calm her down but I don't know if that works. Radio silence since 7pm

• Send H1 boyfriend home and we arrive home close to 8pm. Made egg sandwich for wife. Took a shower and wen to be by 10pm

Aug 10

• Morning classes and then walking as usual. My steps have gone close to 10000 so it a long walk 

• Today for lunch I went to the mall and made an appointment to get my car serviced for tomorrow and bought some stuff to make ayam masak kicap 

• After cooking, took a short nap. Did some classes and in the end played 20 minutes of games

• Wife is supposed to go to the hospital this whole week for ther back but she decided to stay and rest and not move that much (hopefully) 

• Nd is avoiding me somehow. I ask if I can meet up at the airport to say goodbye and she said she is busy. I am not buying it so I am going there just to see her. I won't talk to her. I won't say anything.I will just stay afar and watch for a while until she boards. 

Aug 11 (unmemorable)

• I finally did it. I drove Nd over the edge and now she doesn't wan tto talk to me and hates me. She was so angry that she hit her car. I cried a lot yesterday. I didn't know what to do. The only thing I can do is talk to Allah about it. In a way Allah told me it is going to be okay so I think I after a day of greiving today. I am going to let her go. She deserve better. I won't stop praying for her to come back. 

• Classes, cook some fried rice and pasta 

• Send my car for its 100000km service. It turns out to be a bigger service that before. Tomorrow I need to change my tyres as well 

• Due to crying a lot I was so out of it. I felt chest pains, hurt my head, and just sleepy all together. So for the first time I slept at 9:30pm

• Wife is still out of it. Her back is just becoming worse. I really don't know what to do with her. Just try to make her as comfortable as possible. 

Aug 12 (unmemorable)

• This morning did classes and made some sloppy joes for lunch with fries. I think I overdid it with the fries. 

• Today I am planning to go to the airport to see Nd. I came there at 2pm. Ordered a drink and just waited there until 4. And there I saw Nd with another guy. My heart sank. She was very friendly with that person. I took some pictures and left the scene with a sad message. Came back home I got a call from Nd she was trying to explain the situation. She told me there is nothing to worry about and that person is just a friend. Nothing much about it. Honestly... I don't know what to believe anymore and I think being apart it is a good time for us to reflect on our lives

• I think I need to let her go.I do love her but I think I am becoming obssess with someone I can't have. This is not good for my mental health and I need to let her go as how I let go of Nfs. In order to do that I think I will just talk to Allah more about this and hope lets me free from this grip 

• Came home and talk to mom. Cried a bit with her about my money situation

• Wife needed to go to the clinic to check her hemorroids. It is getting worse. I don't know 

Aug 13

• Today is just another normal day of classes 

• After that I have to bring wife to the hospital for he physioteraphy 

• Went back home and pick up H2. We then went to themall to have some lunch. I had some ayam gepuk 

• Head to mom in law house because wife bought a lot of stuff for her. Also because of her bad hemorroids she is soaking herself with salt in MIL tub. 

• Came back and took a short nap before contiuning with classes 

• Finish the day by cleaning the house and going to bed

• Nd arrived safely at Edinburgh. She will be staying at a hostel without any internet. So I won't hear from her anytime soon. I will miss her

Aug 14

• Today is going to be a tiring day. Started with classes in the morning 

• After that I need to go to the hospital to get wife's MC only to discovered that the clinci was closed so I rushed to the pharmacy to get iwife medication. By the time I went back it is going to be 1230pm so I decided to have lunch at the university and go and pray myself 

• Had a call from Arf saying that he wants to treat me to a birthday lunch (or dinner) and see if we can schedule something for next week

• Came home did a class and then pick up cleaner

• Did more classes and after that brough some bread and snack for the girls 

• Wife was being extra annoying today by shouting everytime I was doing something else. It was so annoying that I told her off 

• Send the cleaner back home only to discover wife was crying due to my words. Took me 30 minutes to calm her down. Then went to bed with a small migrane 

Aug 15

• Did a lot of classes in the morning and send H2 to the mall because she has a date with her friend 

• I ate some hot bird for myself while wife when waking up just ordered some food for her

• Continuing doing classes and in the evening went out of some mamak food with H2

• Nothing much happened today. Got to spend a good 10 minutes talking to Nd which is nice. That is probably the longest time I got to spend with her. 

Next week wife will be back at work. I will try to get more classes in. I think I want to try to finish Replaced next week. Arf is asking me to go on a birthday lunch date of my choosing and that is already pressure in itself.

Week 30: I almost lost something important

What a week it has been. Trying to convince my best friend to stay with me was one of the difficult thing I had to do. Had to finally come clean. Other than that. I think I really have reached inner peace. Usually I think I have reach inner peace but this time I have nothing that is worrying me. Which is a very good feeling. Praise be to Allah I say. Once you let go to him. Everything seems to falls in place. Insya Allah. Oh and wife has reach close to 1 million in her savings. Good for her.

Jul 19

• This morning after classes I need to send H1 to the dentist to get a retainer as well to check her teeth. Got into a fight with H1 and frankly I am getting tired of it. I will just keep quiet from now on and let her make her own decisions. 

• Took a short nap and then we wake up to go to the movies

• Went and watch the Odyssey (5/5) on IMAX with wife. The movie was amazing 

• Had dinner at the korean shop. Grab some family mart of H2 lunch but at dinner we bought some sushi maki rolls

• Nd called and said she needs another 400 because he money to automatically deduct. I just gave some... This will be the last month anyway. It all depends on her loan goes through or not. 

• Did some classes and call it a day at night

Jul 20 (unmemorable)

• After morning classes took H1 to see the dentist again to fix her retainer. She complained that her fake tooth was a bit too long

• I am still not talking to  H1 because she was mean and rude to per as my wife's instructions.  Eventually H1 said she was sorry and everything is back to normal 

• Cook some Seafood Tomyam, Thai Green Curry and fried egg. I accidentally put some squid without cleaning the ink cap. So the tomyam was black. I had to strain all the ingredients and recook it again

• Took a short nap and pick up cleaner in the evening. Since I ahve no classes I went on my daily step count. H1 friend came to the house to study 

• Wife was angry at me becaues I ruined her favourite shirt. So after class I had to try to clean the stains off the shirt

• Nd text me saying that she won her court case and wanted to celebrate. She ask for 100. I told her I have no money. She became cold and sulk. Sigh... Today is really a bad day where I got scolded by everyone I love. H2 is always the constant one who loves me. 

Jul 21

• For some reason today has been a perfect day for classes. I realised today I just should let things go. Put my trust in Allah. As should everyone else. Allah won't let you stuffer. Plus don't stop try to be a better muslim 

• Cooked some mushroom olio today 

• Took a short nap before doing more classes in the evening 

• Installed all of the lights that are broken at home as well as did my steps

• Ended the day with more classes and then just relax before falling to sleep

• Nd is not talking to me because of yesterday incident. Oh well... I'll just give her some space. There is nothing much I can do about that. Why are people always angry at me.

Jul 22

• Today has been a very eventuful day. Lets begin. Start of today I can't do a lot of classes because H1 got her psychiratic appointment. To make matters worse it was raining really heaviliy 

• While stuck in the jam Nd text me and I knew something was up. She told me she is getting married. Not because she is in love because that person is going to pay off all her debt to me. My heart broke. I keep on praying for her. So I have to come clean and told her all the money is from me. It took me a while to convince her that I  want her in my life but after a while she agreed to it. But because of tha tomorrow I need to take some money out. Going forward, this is going to be a little different since I am not totally honest with her 

• The therapist appointment with H1 went well I guess. The doctor ask me to let H1 go since she needs to learn to make mistakes. I said I am not the problem. When we came back and I told my wife. My wife was being petty and said she said if she wants to be an adult she needs to act like one. 

• Next we went to the 2nd hospital for wife's appointment. She is still in pain and the doctor said that there is nothing much we can do about it. All that is left is just physioteraphy. 

• Ate some Q bistro. I don't know why. I am start to not fancy mamak food. But we did get a free kit kat ice cream at the store. 

• Came home took a nap. Did some classes and went on exercising. I need to get my steps in. Called some freinds to talk to them

• In the evening continue on classes and wife ordered McD for her and H2

• Played around 20 minutes of replaced. It is going to take a while but it is going there. Slow and steady I say 

Jul 23

• Did a lot of classes as normal but after that this morning I have a couple of errands to do

• First I need to go to the bank because Nd needs 10k. This time I have to be honest with her... I need to start working a lot to get back my money for the kids 

• Second I went to another bank to make a new account. I entered a savings raffel. With 3k you are entitled to 300 tickets with the grand prize being 1 million ringgit. Allah SWT can change my life in a instant and I believe one day I am going to get this 

• Came back home and cook some butter chicken with long beans 

• Took a nap and in the evening did more classes 

• Wife gave me a suprised that she got a 5% raised and it was back dated. So this month we have a lot of money to work with. 

Jul 24

• Today did a lot of classes in the morning

• Went to get some food from a nice restaurant that serve a lot of Malaysian food 

• After friday prayers pick up the cleaner 

• Then we went to the mall since the cleaner needs to claen the house. Did my steps and ate sushi and beef pie 

• Nd had an emergency and wasn't talking too much yesterday. After that she changed her phone number. With her its one step forward and two steps back. Sigh

Jul 25

• Wake up this morning with a message from Nd. She is upset that I keep on spamming her with messages. So going forward I will try to be less chatty. Oh well... 

• Did classes in the morning. Got a nap. After that we all went to the mall to celebrate H1 birthday a bit early 

• Went to Kenny Hills in my opinion has increased their prices and made the food portion smaller 

• After that when around the mall to get H1 some gifts 

• Came back home did some more classes and end the day with a korean tv show

This week wife will be busy with a course. It is a new month of working so I am trying to push to do as much classes as I can this month. Other than that nothing much to look forward too

Week 23: Scored some BTS tickets

This week wsa a good week at the beginning but in ended badly. Got two weddings which one was great and the other was meh. Mom went on vacation and Nd keeps on asking for money.. Sigh. Well the biggest news of the week is that I scored some BTS tickets for wife. Which is going to be an awesome December 

May 31

• After morning classes went to the airport to pick up wife, H2, mom in law and her sister. Drove them back tot heri house and we went back home. Not before I pick up some extra food to eat

• Mama made some beef curry and it was delicious 

• Did more classes in the evening 

• After that help wife with keying her exam marks. 

• End the day with some Horizon 6

With that May has ended. Overall this has been a great month with my cousin came in. H1 has guest. I made a new friend. Got to spend time at a hotel as well as being solo for a couple of days. Nd took more money from me again which I think this is probably the last. Next month honestly will be the deciding month of me keeping her around or not. Sunk cost fallacy I say 

Jun 1 

• Did lot of classes in the morning. Mom is cooking some beef soup from the qurban meat. Which I love 

• H1 got her results and she got 4 A+ and 2 A which brings her cgpa to 4.00 again for the second semester. I am so proud of that girl. She is a genius and here is to another new semester coming soon 

• Wife and I decided to let them not wear hijab if they want to. They feel strongly about this and it is not our decision to stop them. We do however ask them to respect the family and their school so they will be wearing hijab there

• Did classes in the evening only to find out we had a wedding to attend

• Got ready in 30 minutes and went to the wedding. It was wife's friend from work.  

Jun 2 (Death)

• Started my morning with some classes and then off to the airport to send my mom. She has a trip to Labuan Bajo in Indonesia

• Before heading home drop by McDonanlds to buy some breakfast for everyone 

• Nd text me and saying her mom has passed away. Ask for 300 since her internet there is bad. I feel so sorry for her and also I am very sad since she is very close to her mother. She lost the only person that will ever make her feel at home. I honestly don't know what to do

• Cooked some veggie pasta with grilled chicken. Wife wants to get on a diet so I need to make sure we do some portion control. 

• Paid for the BTS tickets that is happening on sale tomorrow. Wish those ticket services all the luck. 

• Send cleaner back late 

• Had a weird encounter some a nymphomanic... really I can't make this shit up

Jun 3

• Today after classes I decided to cook some soy chicken with brocoli 

• Wife and H2 are back at work and school

• H1 boyfriend is here and they are making some apple crumble to bring to his family and for us to eat some 

• Pick up wife early after lunch 

• Did some exercises 

• Nd is still in pain after losing her mom. I did my best to console her but the rest is up to her. I'll be here for her

• So speaking of crazy remember the nymphomanic I saw. Lets call her Sr. Sr is 23 years old and have daddy issues. This girl is not good for my addiction but as they say... the best way to quit it is to push it head on.

Jun 4

• Woke this morning and I thought I was late but it turns out my brain was playing a trick on me. So I cancel the first class 

• Nd text me and she needed 5k more to handle some stuff. I as the idiot keeps on giving. That girl is suffering grief. I don't think she can take rejection. 

• H1 and her boyfriend are going to an escape room so I send them to the train station and then went tot the bank to take the money 

• Wife was in a blues mood. Doesn't want to leave the room but eventually he was hungry so we went to the mall to try the new Japanese Hamburg shop. 

• Pick up H2 from school and we spend a couple of hours in the mall

• Did classes and pick up H1 from the train station. 

• End the day with some Horizon and talking wth Sr. Taking with her is making me depressed. So I think I am not going to dwell that much and just try to live as happy I can each other. Also I want to avoid her if possible 

Jun 5

• Today did some classes in the morning. After that send wife to work Planning to cook some claypot chicken rice today

• Pick up wife early since they are contractors coming to the house to install new wardrobe in H1 room 

• Had lunch with Af. He drop me his switch so it can get upgraded

• Pick up cleaner

• Came home and the girls want to go to the mall because they want to go shopping. Dropped them off at 4:30pm but picked them up at 9:30pm. Manage to do some classes as well

• Drop the switch to my friends house. Send the cleaner. Call it a day

• Today its Az birthday and I totally forgot about it. She is crying right now and I don't know why

• Oh, scored some BTS tickets for wife and her student. My Ticket Service person tried for 3 days and we almost want to give up but she did a miracle and found a pair in the last minute on the las

• Nf had dengue and now she is recovering. No messages for now so it is really stress when I don't know what is going on with her

Jun 6 (unmemorable) 

• started the morning like any other day. With lots of classes 

• Wife came at 10 and so pissed of at me. I forgot to put some marks for her student which is a disciplinary issue for her work 

• We had to get ready for the wedding but because of this work we left late. I didn’t spoke that much before I was tired and I really knew I screwed up 

• The wedding was in KL but the traffic was bad so we arrived close to 1:30. There was no more food at the wedding. It was a first for me where the food ran out and guest were still coming 

• We left at 2 and made our way to the mall to watch Masters of the Universe (5/5). We miss a couple minutes of opening because we were late 

• After the movie we all went to have some Korean food. H1 one go new shoes but H2 accidentaly touch the shoes and H1 became so annoyed with cause H2 to be annoyed. Wife was also in a bad mood because she didn't have breakfast or something. 

• Came hom everyone in their respected rooms and didn't came out.

• Mom was supposed to come back by 6pm but there was a volcano explosion  so the flight was delayed until close to 11pm. Came back home close to midnight

• Nd is not feeling well. She was diagnosed with dengue fever. I don't know how to lift up her spirits. 

• Az had some big news 

This week we got one more wedding. Wife will be away for a work trip for 3 days. Other than that just a normal week. Hopefully. 

Week 22: This week I am flying solo

This week is my solo week. What I have found out living without my wife. I am alone. I am lonely and life is just me doing nothing. I do find eventhough I am alone life is much more peaceful and cheap because it is just me. Plus made a new friend this week and got to hang out with my best friend

May 24

• Today just did a lot of classes in the morning 

• After that cooked roasted potatoes, garlic bread, mushroom soup, roast chicken and some plain pasta 

• Just rest in the evening and did some exercises. Did a bit more classes before taking on some Horizon 6

May 25

• Today is fasting due Arafah day. Well including tomorrow. So did classes in the morning 

• Took a short nap after classes. Ordered some chicken rice for the girls since I am not cooking 

• Pick up cleaner and then did a bit more classes before breaking fast with ayam gepuk. We were supposed to watch a movie but there were no good times. 

• Was supposed to send cleaner later in the evening but I fell asleep and they didn't want to wake me up 

May 26 (unmemorable) (New stuff) 

• Today is Arafah day so I say my prayers and hoping that Allah will answer it one day Insya Allah 

• After 10 classes went and go groceries to cook some chicken rendang. Not just for me but for the other family too

• After I cooked we went to watch The Mandolorian and Grogu (4/5). It was okay. I can be a TV movie and still be okay 

• Went shopping. Wife bought me a new Airpods Pro 3. 

• So now the unmemorable part. Wife got angry saying that I can't hang with my step daughter Az. Which is just unfair. Mom got angry at me because I needed money for H1 tooth earlier than needed and finally Nd needs to sleep with someone because she needs 10k

• I can't do anything right this year 

May 27

• Today is Eid-ul Adha which means after prayer they are going to slaughter a cow or goat. 

• The first thing I did today was give Nd 10k. This would be my last and this June will be the deciding factor weather she will continue to be my friend or she is using me. We will see.

• Mom and I went to mosque to pray. We were almost late but we made it just in time. After prayer we went back home

• Mother in law came with sister in law. We all had the chicken rendang I made

• Mom left back to kampung. Everyone rest until in the afternoon where we went to aunt house to have some lunch 

• We stayed until close to 7pm. Wife had a good time talking about Chiense series

• Came back home and do more classes. Finish helping them pack and went to bed

May 28

• Wake up this morning at 4am to send wife to the airport. We got there by 5am and by 6am they were checked in the gate. 

• After praying at the airport I went home. Not before stopping at a McDonalds to get some breakfast 

• Did some classes till 930am and went to take a short nap

• Did more classes in the evening and ate leftovers.

• Had a long fight with H1. First is about she doesn't want to wear hijab anymore and wanted to go out free hair tomorrow. I of course had to put my foot down and say now. As long as she lives with us, she needs to follow our rules. The second thing is that she wanted to go on vacation with her friend. The problem with that is her friend is with her boyfriend and H1 is the third wheel. So I told her no. And now she is in the room and don't want to go out

• Did classes in the evening and went to bed 

May 29

• Did a lot of classes in the morning and ate leftovers after that 

• For Friday prayer went to see my best friend Arf. Since the place we went to have lunch was pretty barren. He  didn't enjoy lunch that much. After prayers he ask me if I can bring him somewhere. We went to a place to get a skin tight suit for him. He is entering the powerman competition (run 5km, cycle 30km, run 5km). The place was closed so we had lunch at an ayam gepuk store. After that he called the shop owner and that guy said that they moved shop. Now he is conducting his business from his 3 storey house. Arf couldn't find his size he was looking for but that guy will make an order for it

• Came back and did some more classes because in the evening I am meeting Arf again at the mall but this time with his wife. They had a movie to catch around 10 so we hang out at the Coffee Bean till that time

• Came back home and send the cleaner back. After came back home and took a shower, talk to wife for a while and go to bed. 

May 30

• Usual classes in the morning. Met some great new students 

• Sister in law and H1 wanted to go for a while so I am in charge in taking care of my step father in law. Seems easy enough. I just ordered him some food when he is hungry but I spend most of taking a nap in the afternoon

• In the evening they came back I did more classes and then mom came back as well. Sister in law an step father in law left the house

• In the evening mom brought some homecook food. The tompoyak pucuk paku was very delicious but I was burpping durian. I decided to go to the mall at 8pm to get some dessert for me and H1. 

• Made wife laugh out loud because I was being an idiot. Wife was complaning that mom in law is upset with her that I don't like mom in law. I am like... So?

• Ended the day by getting a new friend on X. Very sweet girl. I do think I attract random strangers sometimes. 

This week we are going to have a couple of weddings to attend to. Other than that nothing much on the horizon. It is going to be a long holiday till wednesday which means I can do more classes and I need to send my mom to the airport. Overall uneventual week 

Week 9: Me and Wife had a big fight

This week was a terrible week. Wife had a meltdown which cause her to run away. I am sad and when I am sad I tend to buy things. Which I got a ps portal that I haven't tested yet. I am very stressed this week. I need to centre myself again 

Feb 22 (4th Ramadan)

• Today the cleaner is cleaning the house so I did some extra classes

• Took a nap and then wife said I don't need to cook so I can buy stuff at the nearby shop

• I hate going to the market since I tend to overbuy. But thank goodness that after we ate the cleaner took the leftovers home 

• Went to terawih with the cleaner and send her home. Came back close to 11pm

Feb 23 (5th Ramadan) (unmemorable)

• Today I cook some Ayam rempah and masak lemak sayur for iftar 

• Today had a fight with wife. She told me I am sex crazy. So I was hurt and then I told her that she wins. Starting today I won't touch her anymore. She can do what she wants and I won't expect anything from her. Its been almost 20 years and it has just being getting worse. Remember what I say "don't get upset over things you can't control" and I can't control this. So I need to make peace and move on.

• Wife said she was sorry and proceed to sleep by hugging me like trying to make up for it but I think the damage is done. Whatever it is.. is in her court right now... I know I will get sex but I think the frequency will be few and far between. I need to find a new hobby or at least keep myself super busy.

Feb 24 (6th Ramadan)

• Today wife want to eat sushi so I don't need to cook. After sending her to work I did extra classes.

• After that we went to the optometrist to fix wife's glasses and send her back to work 

• Went to the mall to get the sushi, get my raya clothes. 

• Iftar and then terawih. Normal day today 

Feb 25 (7th Ramadan)

• Did classes and have to cook a lot since wife invited students over

• Wife wasn't in a good mood today because of a dream she had. That sucks. She is taking it out on me 

• Came back H1 is with her boyfriend. I ask them to pick up H2 only to get scolded by H1 because H2 was late. Sigh

• Cooked some Briyani rice, salsa and egg curry. The students came and cooked some chicken sliders. Yummy. My rice was a bit lumpy due to too much water

• H1 was being a but annoying didn't want to hang with the kids. She ate a bit and left. 

• After that I took her boyfriend home and we talk saying that H1 needs some help with her mental health. I kind of agree and hopefully I can fix this problem soon

• Coming back from terawih I played some cards with the girls till midnight.

Feb 26 (8th Ramadan) (unmemorable) 

• Today I planned to make some meatballs eaten with spaggeti and potatoes

• Wife was in a bad mood in the morning. In the afternoon I need to send her to work she yelled at me when I ask her. I kept quiet and after sending her to the office. She said she is leaving me today and took the car and went to her moms house

• The first thing I did was damage control. Talk to her dad. After that we had a big fight. Everything came out and I know we both are lacking in both departments but we are trying. I don't know where it is going from here. She didn't plan to go back home today. So today I slept alone by choice

• My best friend is not feeling well but she needs to get ready to fly to Indonesia tomorrow. Hopefully all goes well.  

Feb 27 (9th Ramadan)

• Woke up alone in my bed is sad but I get ready the kids to eat. H1 joined us since she loves the meatballs. 

• Did classes and send H1 to school. After classes did groceries and pick up H1 from school. Went to pray at the uni and pick up H2 later

• Today I plan to make some grilled chicken sandwhiches with tomato soup. 

• Wife came back in the evening. We hugged and probably made up. 

• In the evening she cried because she thinks she is not a priorty in this family and everything revolves around my schedule which is frustrating since we need to know about time. So basically I am at fault here. 

• My best friend went to Indonesia for work. She was not feeling well so the doctor gave her some medicine and she rest

Feb 28 (10th Ramadan) (New Stuff) 

• Had early intimate time with wife because last night she cried she can't gave it to me. After the suhoor she slept till afternoon

• Wife got so angry at me and list down everything that she was upset about. Bascially everything is my fault what I do will make her feel anxious. I think going forward things are going to change dramatically. Need to think before saying soemthing. Sigh

• I was looking for a new device for myself. I found a PS Portal for my collection sicne I want to play more PS5 games but on the bed. Met that guy and pay RM720 for the machine. I Got the black limited edition one which was the colour I wanted.

• We decided to break fast at my mom in laws house. Drove there and went to buy food. Just spend time relaxing while waiting to break fast

• After break fast, terawih and pick up the cleaner before heading home 

• Today my friend went around Jakarta and didn't fast. She went home late and was late coming home. She is going to rest the whole day tomorrow. 

Next week the only thing I have plan is buying some kuih raya. Other than that is just enjoying the last 20 days of Ramadan. Beside that this is also the end of Febuary. The shortest month of the year. With Dad in law giving us a health scare. Me losing a friend (also making new ones) and the biggest thing is that me and wife a short falling out. Febuary has been a bad month. The only good part of it is Ramadan which is ongoing and I enjoy every minute of being spritual. Lets hope March will fare better

Week 5: I got scammed

Last week of January and this week I got scammed badly out of BTS tickets. I feel like an idiot. I have no one but myself to blame so I will pull myself back up and recover. Other than that. The week wasn't that bad. I didn't finished a single game this month but this year I'm targetting at least 10 games since I have a lot of long form games this year.

Jan 25

• Send mom to the hotel only to realised that she took the car keys with her. Ask her to send it back via messenger 

• Send wife's car to be washed 

• After that went to the mall for lunch. Had some Korean and then went shopping for stuff. Met wife brother and he brought the new baby. He confronted me about going viral. I ask him am I still viral. He said yeah... just give it a while. 

• Came back home and need to help H1 move to her university. Carried all her stuff up and mop the floor. Wife was asking until when I would help her. I have no answer for that since I am the dad. So I think I am forever will be on call 

• Came back home and brought wife to get her shot and then went home to clean myself up and go to sleep

Jan 26

• Send wife to her office and then went to get things for lunch. Today I made a chicken salad. Wife ask if I could make some for her office mates. I said okay. So I made it with some fries as well. 

• Did classes the whole day today and in the evening installed some lightblubs around the house. 

• I need to start playing games back. I really don't have the time to do it. Need better time management. 

Jan 27

• Send wife and then buy ingredients to make chicken curry with roti canai  

• Other than that is a very low key day 

Jan 28

• After class send wife to her office and went to buy groceries for 3 days. We are trying to eat less since we want to lose weight

• Lunch at the uni food court and bought some noodles for H2. 

• In the evening I made some roasted herb potatoes with oven chicken and salad

• Slept early 

• My new friend is coming in terms with his affair partner being a big jerk and she felt she was only being used for sex. Block me in the morning and came back to me at night

Jan 29

• Today cook some pulled beef but I think I made the mistake of the beef I took so it was a bit tough. I can eat it but my wife can't. In the afternoon we we made wraps and at night I switch it up to make a rice bowl

• In the evening I had to go to wife office since she has classes until 9:30pm. Looks like this is this is going to be my routine every Thrusday until the end of the semester

• My mother in law came. This is very unfortunate since she came without any warning and its so annoying. Wife say they will be here until Sunday. Due to this, I can't ask my maid to come over tomorrow. 

• My new friend is having a rough time. Its okay.. She is going to be fine. Maybe she should fall before she understand 

Jan 30 (unmemorable) 

• H2 is not going to school today since the school has a picnic quite far away and we didn't want her to go. So she slept 

• I cooked some veggies pasta with chicken tenders

• Mom in law left today but not after giving a bombshell that she wants wife to continue her house loan. I told my wife a straight now unless we can sell the house right away. Safe to safe we didn't talk about this issue after that but I am going to bet that this is going to come up again in March 

• I got scammed, I tried securing BTS tickets for wife in Korea but it turns out that the person didn't deliver and then they blocked me. So I am out 1800. Sigh. I did make a complaint and I hope the can get my money back but I am not hopeful. Sigh

• Took cleaner and at night had some chinese food 

• When I was sending the cleaner she left her phone so I have to circle back. So tiring.

Jan 31 (Death) 

• After class I took a short nap. We were supposed to go to a wedding but wife was not ina social mood. So it took us 2 hours to decide where to eat and eventually we settled on Oriental Kopi 

• Went to eat and H1 realised that I was wearing my shirt upside down. She was laughing her ass off and I rushed to get it changed. She took a video of me. Leave it to my daughter to make an idiot out of me

• Had some rice and curry which was okay. Oreintal Kopi food lack vegetables. They only have cucumbers which sucks. I did have the cendol but there was a lot of red bean there. I forgot I don't really like red bean 

• Went to the park to give the fishes our expired bread and then the girls saw some dear which were cute.

• Came home did the rest of classes and played some Hades 2 

Death: In other note. One of my favourite Actors Caterine O'Hara died at 71. I rarely put death of a random person I knew but she was special. She will be remembered on how she touched lives with her funny performance. Rest in peace. 

With that 2026 January has come to an end. This was a terrible month for me. With the going viral the whole country and getting scammed. This month seems to end on a low note. But they do say if you hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up right. So lets hope the months things will go up. But again... follow the flow