I hope I get another chance

It has been miserable for me. The family notice that I am not myself. Sigh.... Being sad sucks.  Everyday I pray for they to come back and this it will be totally different. I will refrain myself from becoming too me because really that what got us into the mess at the first place. They may think that our friendship is over but really I feel that our friendship is just beginning and we are actually tweaking it to reach the good spot. You know what they always say... Third time's the charm but I would give anything in the world to get another chance.... anything. In the meantime just trust that everything will hopefully go to His plan... rantings of a delusional guy... no one is ever going to see his anyway. 😔